Loving someone is when you are willing to sacrifice your own happiness so she can be happy. Seeing her happiness shine through that beautiful smile is worth everything and more...
So, I'm sick today. >.< And I can be so annoying when I'm feeling not well. Perhaps this will make her want to bite me. Hahaha. Well, if been a couple day yet I don't know how to keep track of our day together. Such as this early in the morning she come to my place and we went to campus. Well, she had a class this morning and so do I. I've been making a timeline since when we did actually chat, and I just find out it was the 2nd of October that very first yet then it was blank til the 15th of November 2011. So I'll just made some chit chat here. Not now perhaps. but in the future. soooo, this chapter are about:
What I Love About her
- Regularly what I love about her. She was everything to me, and more apt that she are all over me. With her mature behavior yet sometime can act childish. I don't know why, that made me more into her. Her smile and yet also when she was pissed about my act or anything. I just want to hugged her and loved her more. I keep this to let myself know how precious she is to me. These lists will help me remember why I love her during times when perhaps I'm feeling disconnected or sick. Well you know, the mind are blown off when you're sick. And I don't quite like it. haha. Finally I've already told her, and ask her to be my 'f'. Yet the real purpose will be later. Far from this point, still I've got the answer. I loved her so much as she love me back. I trust her as she trust me with all her secret. While perhaps every relationship has its ups and downs, we still maintain every single thing and yet, there're never a reason for us to fight. Cause when I'm in a bad mood, she has her own way to made me smile. also when she was in a bad mood, I keep teasing her so eventually she smiled back. >.< Thought it's still a baby step for us. to tell myself in the future how I used to love you and when it keep growing. :*
Be true to me.
Honesty is the best policy. There is no need to lie to me or yourself about the way you’re feeling at any given moment about any given thing. If something is bothering you, let me know so we can work together to fix it. And if you don’t want my help in fixing whatever problem is on your mind, let me know that, too. I will gladly step aside if you need your space.
If I’m doing something that upsets or annoys you, ask me to stop. I sometimes struggle with criticism, but I’d rather you tell me the truth.
I won’t hide anything from you regardless of what happens with me, so you shouldn’t feel like you need to hide anything from me. And if you do feel like you need to hide things, please notice me so I realize it. Cause you know that I'm not a sensitive guy who could easily read other thought. So keep me know, what's going on with you because I can't help if you don't tell me. :'(
Be true to yourself.
Don’t be insecure about anything. Be true to yourself.
That being said, Obviously, I cannot control the way you act, but if I like who you are, then be that person. There is no need for you to try to act “cool” in front of friends or strangers, >.< unlike me thought. cause it's my basic to strangers.
I will never worry about you “embarrassing” me in front of my family, my friends, or complete strangers, because if that was something I had to worry about. And if I understand and like who you really are, the only reason I would have to worry about that sort of thing is if you are trying to be somebody else. .
I might even tell you I think you are perfect, but don’t be panicked by that statement. If I say it, I mean it. And what I mean is that your “imperfections” are what make you unique, and they are exactly why I like you.
Save me from myself.
Talk when I need to listen. Shut me up when I’m not making sense. Tell me when I’m wrong,naive nor hypocrite. I mentioned above not to suggest that I change as a person, but also don’t let me being afraid of the concept of change. Encourage me to try new things and expand my horizons. Force me to go on adventures, to experience different ways of life, to journey out of my comfort zone.
Remind me that nobody’s perfect. Making mistakes is okay, but don’t allow me to keep making the same ones. Allow me to grow as a person, but if I’m being stubborn, make me grow.
That's what I wish for us. :D or perhaps more apt as my ego for us. Being such an egoist person. >.<"Too bad people didn’t fall in love at the same pace, at the same time, for the same reasons, and too bad those emotions didn’t move simultaneously. But each act of madness moved at its own pace, one not dependent on the pace of anyone else. It wasn’t like tandem skydiving, where you were connected as you fell, where you were forced to fall at the same rate and use the same parachute. Falling in love was a solo act. I knew that, had learned that the hard way. You just jumped and hoped your parachute opened. Sometimes you looked up and saw you were falling by yourself, the object of your desire still on the plane, not interested in jumping, watching you descend into that scary place alone."
— Eric Jerome Dickey, The Novel Pleasure
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